D · m0m3nt

countdown: 5 days more.

status: desperate 4 a new life.

wondering y ppls r bzing 4 doing revision while im so relaxing.

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IM LAZY!

nvm i'll responsible on wat im doing.

run forward n nvr regret.

truth b told my spiritul growth is having certain resistance recently.

feeling wana escape from all church business.

church life is totally different from wat im supposing since im small.

maybe tat's a wrong dcision 4 me 2 bcome coworker n cellgroup leader.

i hate 2 do those organizational work.

i hate 2 lead n provide careness purposely like a machine without feeling.

y me?!

dun tell me tat's god's decision.

tis answer cant satisfy me so far.

i can gv care.

but who in turns concern bout wat im thinking?!

TIRED!

somemore relationship is so hard 2 b built.

y juz cant leave me ALONE ALONE ALONE.

i prefer 2 b isolated rather than a social interaction.

so apparent!

even my classmate relationship can b better than those.

i nvr do such called "care" purposely on them!

i can talk n msn vf them so comfortably while in another hand i feel so awkward as i face vf my churchmates!

y?!

im asking.

1 year had gone but im still standing on da same spot.

i wonder when i can quit from tat position.

im not refused 2 tek service.

but juz not in tis role!

HELP!

i 1na go bk home.

bk 2 da original place 2 find bk myself.

listening.

Leslie-jor you shou.

sleep.

IS 2mr.

ps: pray 4 me i nid a stronger heart n another alley 2 leave tis path.